Happy New Year!!

Well, I can't believe I totally missed December. My apology for anyone who had Dec. birthdays. I hope people remembered your birthdays without them posted on the blog. Yes I am losing it. Or could it be that I had 4 major Christmas parties to plan, prepare and deliver. Not to mention my stressful job. But it all got done. And I only had a tear in my retina to show for it. If we could just see from the end to the beginning that everything was going to turn out - we would worry less. But that is where prayer and faith come in. Something I often forget about. Oh, believe me I pray! Sad to say, I just don't trust the Lord. There, I said it! My New Year's resolution is to have more faith and be more optomistic. Ed would be laughing right now if he heard me say that. I'm a pessimist and a worrier. "What if" is my middle name. And its funny because I'm 62 years old and I can't say anything terribly bad has ever happened because I was in charge. Even if I had a magic ball and could see the future - I would be afraid something would interfere and change the future somehow. I picture my perfect future as sitting in a rocking chair on a porch in front of a beautiful beach and ocean. Diet Pepsi - with lots of ice - and all the sereneness that comes with it. Then comes my wildly vivid dramtic mind interupting the calmness with a huge gigantic 100 foot wave rushing toward me to wash me out to sea. I can't even dream peace and calm!!! So my dear relatives, having said all that, wasn't the family Christmas Party great! I'm not sure what mom was thinking during all the madness Sunday night. Masses of little kids running around screaming and chasing each other, 37 adults running and fighting for chairs and gifts that we could go out and buy for ourself. Not to mention all the other adults on the sidelines cheering for their loved ones to win the big one!! Well, I think she was grinning inside and saying to herself, "I wish Grandpa was here to see what we created!" Happy New Year everyone!